Tomorrow I start my internship year, which, for those of you who aren’t familiar with medicine, is the first year of training after graduating from medical school. For the past week I have been sitting in orientation and meeting other interns from around the country who are all doing intern year or medicine residency at Santa Clara Valley Medical Center. And last Thursday I got my shiny new badge with the two letters MD stamped after my name.
Do I feel like a real life MD yet?
The short and honest answer is no. I just graduated from medical school two Saturdays ago. As a medical student, the most patients I ever took care of at one time was 4. Now I will regularly be responsible for 10 patients at a time, and on certain shifts such as night float, I will be the only intern covering for over 100 medicine patients in the hospital.
It’s so exciting and terrifying at the same time.
I feel like I’m about to embark on a life changing journey, where I will experience the extremes of emotions as I have never felt before in my career. I read “House of God” by Samuel Shem on a long flight a couple months ago, and I can’t help but wonder if I will feel any of those raw emotions described in that satire in some way, shape, or form this year.
Well, all I can say at this point in time is this: Bring it on!